November 2008
copycats:
“Staying Alive” by The Rosebuds
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I'm feeling musical.
copycats:
“Love Will Tear Us Apart” by Susanna...
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“Like I Love You / Slow” by Bell X1
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I promised myself I'd sleep early tonight.
I have too many thoughts.
You think too much, you hurt yourself with your own thoughts. It’s in your head, Nadine. It’s all in your head.
-Ex
Well, something to that effect anyway. But I’m pretty sure he stressed the part when he said it’s all in my head. I’m guessing he did that for the drama, not the emphasis.
Sadly, he was right. He still is. I continue to...
The pupil in denial.
I know what I’m getting myself into.
I know what he wants from me.
I know that this is bound to end.
I know that I will get hurt.
This will not last.
One day, he, too, will be gone.
Why, then, am I still here?
I stay because he makes me feel.
I stay because he wants me.
I stay because I’ve never felt this way for so long.
I stay because he reminds me of who I used to be;
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Some people just don't get it.
Actually, I don’t believe that. People just refuse to understand.
I spent an hour talking to a blockmate on the phone. She does not seem to get why people are so upset with her. She has all these reasons on why she thinks we’re all wrong & that everyone’s treating her unfairly.
Well, first of all; PEOPLE TREAT YOU THE WAY YOU LET THEM. She takes shit from everyone, so...
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I'm trying to sleep.
I have healed, atleast I’d like to think so. I’ve been in and out of this one too many times that I don’t see the beauty in healing anymore, if ever there is such a thing. At the end of the day, a feeling still remains.
What feeling, exactly, you ask.
It is not necessarily pain, but a feeling nonetheless.
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“When I sleepwalk
into your room, and pick you up,
and hold you up in the...”
– “Little Sleep’s-Head Sprouting Hair in the Moonlight” by Galway Kinnell
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Need.
I have been unable to write. I have been writing, but mediocrity takes its toll. I only find myself writing when I am angry, hurting, and miserable. Now, I am idle. Surprisingly, the absence of pain does not make the sadness go away, if anything, it toys with my emotions even further. I need inspiration. I need for things to change.
I need to feel.
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Sleep Trip. →
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